today i went out wif dearest GFFs. Ezah n Iana, baby!
i miss dem to the core siall. n we SUPER had fun today.
thnxs guys. ILY guys loads.
actually we had job interview today.
at whr ehkk. its just for us to know lar siall.
haha. kecohh apee.
we are the only ppl making noise in dat stupid office.
hahaa. kite katekn. tak ble stop uat bising.
kwang3. so yeah. had to wait for our stupid turns.
n like today was the *bau se-dunia* day. haha.
lepas satu, satu bau peng sialll. ccb!
me n ezah got the job. but pity iana she din.
due to no spot. wtf!!
its ok. once we get our pay, we'll blanja u ok syg!.
haha. no worries k bebb. ure not forgotten!.
n we waited for Adam Kaveri to pass his hwks.
Tpkn dia PAITAU aperr!!. *nmpk sahh mat buih*.
Den we saw this group of ppl.
N1 ape mcm gini. ble ludahh sioll.
klua tak tau nk ajak. laen kali tak usah anggap kwn k.
Whateva. *roll eyes*. n jgn skali2 panggil Iana kwn if korg tergamak uat gini.
Pls ehk. stop being hypocritical larr sehk.
P.S.I MISS MY DEAREST MRHOTSTUFF!
I WNA HUG U SOO BADLY!! CAN?



i had so much fun today with syg.
syg said he wna mit me today.
so yeah, met him as usual.
i fetchd him at the usual spot.
n as usual, i was late. hehehe.
i watchd Hannah Montana.
hahaha. *mcm bdk kecik*.
so went home to slack wif him.
slack and slack. he went to slp.
haha. tido jek keje syg ku. haha
i went to do household chores.
wash dishes n cook rice. haha. *rajin kan. MCM FHM*
today syg haf kompang. so syg had to go off early.
we went out of my hs ard 1630. yupp2.
after syg went to kompang, i did my chores again.
had to iron adq's uniform. hehh.
and daddy's n mummy's work uni. hehh.
and now. OTP wif iana n ezahh.
plannin for tmr. wat tym to mit n at whr.
ouhh gosh. cant wait to work.
i need money siall. arghh.
i wan money can? pls. hehe.

syg, i miss u!
u light up my life.
i nid u soo badly.
syg. I LOVE U!





18Jun2008 realli gave me a wake up call.
ila, stop it with ur ego-ness.
its tym for u to get hurt n not FIRAY.
i was so not myself ytd. i hurt him by my remarks.
haix. why did i made dat stupid mistake.
siallah ila, FIRAY pon ade hati apee.
i know u wont forgive me. n i respect every decision u make.
he almost let me go ytd. BUT thnxs to miracle he din.
i duno wat im gona do if he were to let me go. haix!
wateve it is.i pray hard to ALLAH that he will not.

syg. b4 anything get mixed up.i did went to b.rd ytd.
i did. but afta dat we had a change of plans.
and headed to cityhall. we just want to clear our minds.
ain had some probs ytd. n i just wana be by her side.
is dat so wrong syg?
haix. u accused me of lying to u.
yesh, i was disappointed bt i cant do much ryte?
den came the not meeting u part. yadaayadaa.
den came the meeting when sch reopens.
den came the breaking part.
den came the 'ICE" part.
den came the 50bucks part. argghhhh.
i was so fucking stress. dat my migraine got worse.
haix. but im letting go of every probs ok.
i dun wna dwell on it much.

TO 'aiseyAIN:
i will do wateva it takes to make u n him happi.
i will do wateve it takes to see a smile on ur face.
i will do wateva it takes to make u not gif up on ur love towards him.
n my dear gf,
ure always in my heart n i will help u no matter wat ok.
ILY. so smile always n cherish every single thing!



i just feel like updating. so yeah. afta awhile staring the comp n doin ntg. its betta i blog dis post. so yeah. its abt SYG!

Fri the 13 is when it started.
SUPERgrateful to haf u in my life.
went alot of ups n dwns together.
n im still grateful dat u're still by my side.
Syg, ure my addiction ryte now.
without u here by my side, i duno whr else i would be.
U do make me smile. now even wider. hehh.
Syg, ure my everything. I swear!

Syg, when i look at u, i know there will be a smile on my face.
Syg, when i hug u, i know there will be warmth all ard me.
Syg, when i kiss u, i know my life would be urs.
Syg, how deep is the ocean,
how high is the sky,
how long the train track,
hoe wide is the field,
all of it cant measure up to the love im givin u.!
Syg, ure my sweetest drug, ure my addiction.
Syg, i need u so much than anione else who needs u.
& Syg, i love u so much than anione else can love u.

We both know dat we can go far.
Dun let this opportunity fly by.
bcoz we know we cnt live without each otha.
Syg. i love u.
i wan u to noe this.
without u, life is SUPERmeaningless. <3






i went to watch Kung Fu Panda with syg ytd.
i din noe dat we were gonna watch movie.
he just ask me to follow him. *ikot punye ikot, smpi Jurong Point*
the first thing he said was 'i got one motive when i come here'.
haha. wth! motive kepe syg? haha.
afta bought the tixs. we walk n walk again. hehh.
den he added, 'i got second motive when i come here'.
hahaha. gile lar syg aku nie.
wat i gotta noe is we went to eat. haha. pity him. i wna eat LJS.
he just followed. next tym we dun eat LJS k. i dun wana eat ur grilled chicken nimore. haha. promise. promise.
the movie start at 1540. after eating, went for a smoke. aiyohh. *isap rkk jek keje*
afta had our puffs. we went inside the cinema. took our seatings.
the advertisements was super long siall. hahaha. i was supercold.
lucky syg brought his hoody. syg kamu! hahaha.
waited awhile for the movie to start. haha. cuddled up beside him.
yadaa.yadaa. the movie was oklarr. i think our kiseses made the distraction!.
hehehe. i think ard 5 plus the movie ended. *ntahlarr ehk*
afta dat went to slack wif him at the nearest block.
*nearest keper. haha. punye lar jauh*
had laughs here n dere. took pics usin his hp. haha. den laugh again.
hugging and kissing. yadaa. yadaa. den at 0830 went home. promise daddy i rchd hm at ard 0930. but still rchd hm at 10. whhaaattt.
syg sent me home. sweet kankankan. hehh.
he nid his puffs when we reachd adm. so yeah. dats why i rchd hm late.
WTHH! hahaha.
but whateva it is. im glad im by ur side.

when midnight came by. had a quarrel wif syg.
n im sorry if i hurt u. i din mean it. trully!
i dun mean to drag the matters.
dat is why i hanged up just liddat.
n im sorry. trully. sincerely. i swear!.
i wna meet u. i wna hug u. so hard!
syg. i miss u. n i nid u right nw! <3


im not sure wthr i shld be angry. yesh. u hurt my feelings.
you did. but i did hurt ur feelings too. n yesh. i did say sorie.
not to ur face. but i noe u noe i said sorie.
my frens said dat i shldnt be angry with you. n i know they were rite.
so, i wont be mad at u or hold grudges.
my dear, we were frens. im truly sorie but feelings cant be voided.
'Sad for you, you cant differentiate between diamonds n stones'
my dear, are u implyin dat im the stone? -stone je perr.-
even stone has a value my dear.
but only diamonds are much valuable now.
im glad at least u say im the stone n not sumthing else.
im not the one who hold grudges my dear.
but sad to say.
I DO LOVE FIRAY, DAMN MUCH!





1. when was the last tym u cried?-
monday afternoon perhaps?

2. have you ever faked sick?-
lyk duhh.

3. have you ever cried for a boy?-
yesh.yesh.

4. who was the last person you couldnt take your eyes off?-
woww. mulisha.

5. have you ever been drunk?-
never! sad ryte.

6. whats the furthest you've ever gone on a dare?-
not yet i suppose. hahaha. =)

7. what is your full name?-
kharmila larr sehk.

8. have you ever been in a car accident?-
nope. bicycle can?

9. how old were you when u received your first kiss?-
the first day i was born.

10. who was your first kiss?-
mummy larr sehk.

11. what is your favourite sport to play?-
hmm. netball perhaps.

12. have you ever made a prank call?-
yesh. opps.

13. is there anything you have done that you regret?-
yesh. super regret it!

14. do you believe in love at first sight?-
yesh of course.

15. do you believe in karma?-
yeshh!!

16. how would you describe yourself?-
loud. lame. cheerful. and blablabla.

17. who was your first bf/gf?-
diniy. whhhaattt

18. what is the longest crush/rshp you ever had?-
4 years?

19. what is your weakness?-
-himmm-

20. do you get along wif your family?-
hell yesh!

21. would you ever get a tattoo?-
yesh. but too bad. cant.

22. who makes you laugh without fail?
EZAH, AIN, FIRAY, AIYEESHA KEYS, WAN, GUCC, KAMA, TETEK everyone larr. sng!

23. If you could change anything abt yourself, what would it be?-
i wna haf longer legs. =)

24. what would you want to accomplish before leavin the earth?-
bring happiness to everyone!.

25. List 5 ways what LOVE is to you.-
a) him!
b) a lot of obstacles.
c) happiness
d) a lot of sacrifices!
e) love is blind, bby!

Tag 7 ppl. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them at their tagboard that they've tag!

MLS!!
=)

7May2008 was when it all it started. the high romance. the superhot moves.
okay. what the hell am i talking about? haha. some will understand.
some will not. the super loud laughter. the super lame jokes.
but i just seem to love it all. the sizzling hot fites. the tube of tears.
is always what we wna avoid. but to no avail.
problems come crashing afta one anotha. bahhhh.
but still wished upon a shooting star that fantasies would come alive.
and memories still stoppped by to say hi. and which we cant let go easily.
denigration and criticism ended up the day. and no apology was said.
people once said 'forgive & forget'. but the pain caused was super deep.
moved on to the next day. where confessions were made. super-duper touching
and that day was filled with tears. again and again. tears falls down to earth.
everyone could say. 'Life is Unfair'. But no offence. no one owns the world.
9May2008 came by super fast and school started.
indolent was the key of mind. a promise has to be kept.
although it seems dat this face of mine was swept away.
gone with the wind. lost in the sea. n died on earth. and yes. bewildered.
yet again. being denigrated. twice was enough.
positivity was the key to life. negativity was stuck in my mind.
but when all turns sour. gayboy n super GFFs were dere. pulling me tru.
msgs pleasing for the eyes. cooling down the anger flaming inside.
even millions of thank you could not verbalize how valuable friendship is. =)
and to you gayboy, even the seven wonders of the world.
cant describe what a stunner you are in my eyes.
life is super defective without you by my side.
and yes. life is inevitable of obstacles.
but together, me and you, nothing is impracticable.