the last post was from bby.
now, its my turn to express my feelings.
after prayin hard.
i feel lighthearted now.
i feel free from emotions ruining my life n ours.
so now its the perfect time to let everything out.

ive been sucky at rships.
either im leaving dem or dey leaving me.
even if it was a long term rship.
it still doesnt last.
yesh. it was very heartbreaking.
but im used to standing up and moving on.
ive neva love anione, like im loving sumone today.
ive neva care fer anione, like im caring fer sumone today.
ive neva think of anione, like im tinking of sumone today.
ive neva pray hard to god fer anione, like im praying fer sumone today.

all may think dat it was puppy love.
but we proved dat it was true love.
all may think dat we werent gona make it.
but we proved dat we did.
n will prove dat we will in the future.

it hpns when we were out slacking @ ms.
he just came bck from jb.
we all waited fer him to arrive.
altho it was late. but my heart says wait fer him.
so yeah. went home wif him and gf.
i like had to flirt wif him.
so i askd ezah fer his no.
smsed him fer like till 3am.
nxtwk i askd him out.
grew fond of him.
feelings started to get deeper.
had always been wishing on a star to be his.
tings went on perfectly wonderful fer the first month.
it started to take a u-turn during the second month.
shit hpns. hearts got broken.
tings started to stray. started to move on.
it may seem easy. but it was damn hard.
i was just putting up a brave front.
but its killing inside.
its tearing my heart vigorously.
until i decided to take away my life.
but god wants to prove to u dat i truly love u.
he din let me die. yet he hospitalized me.
but by den. i gave up on everyting.
every sgl promise. every sgl oath.
maybe its our fate to be togetha.
dat u came back.
oh god, im thankful.
we were the way we used to be.
affectionate, romantic and inlove.
BUT. probs occur.
fites btwn frens fer choosing u.
but i just dun care.
i went to u.
fer attention, fer affection and fer everything else.

dear firay,
i gave my heart to u.
fer u to treasure it.
u gave ur heart to me.
fer me to treasure it.
ive neva been inlove with someone this strong.
i scarifice my time, my energy.
just to be with u.
n yes, it is always wonderful.
and will always do.
i can feel ur love towards me.
and i appreciate every sgl ting u did fer me.
i nid u the way u nid me.
i want u the way u want me.
i love u the way u love me.
my love fer u cant compare to the smallest ting i did fer u.
bby, only u haf the key to my heart.
only u.

i love you so much.