Wednesday, August 20, 2008 ♥
Hospitalize Ayy! ♥ Wednesday, August 20, 2008


18August2008-19August2008
Let me start the story.
on how i got landed @ NUH.
wahahaha. Funny.
1930 hours.
took the stupid tablets from the kitchen.
and even the cough mixture.
n guess wat. even the knife.
i took 10 of it on sunday.
so i was quite weak alreadi.
took anotha 6 i assume. or more.
den took the cough mixture.
i sat down on the floor quitely.
weeping&weeping&weeping.
sddnly, my legs went numb.
i cudnt feel a thing.
2045
smsed dad.
"daddy, come inside my room.
call the ambulance too.
i cant feel my legs.
my hands will soon be numb too.
i feel like dying.
come quick. im scared"
still holding on to the knife.
killing myself?
not really. just wana cut myself open.
but den, was too scared to die.
hahahaha. WTF ila.
daddy picked me up and lie me dwn on my bed.
called the ambulance.
2105
ambulance came.
covered my nose with the oxygen mask.
cause i cant breathe.
daddy picked me up again.
and put me on the chair/stretcher.
the 'guys' pushed me to the ambulance.
2130
rchd NUH. went straight to the emergency ward.
had to lie down on the bed.
so they went to do some blood test.
first, was fucking painful.
i was about to faint.
second, save me from fainting.
haha. stupid rite.
then they put two bags of fluid in me.
i tink to wash up the dose.
i had to go toilet.
but no slippa.
so had to walk bare feet.
luckily it was walking distance.
0700
ONLY NOW I GET WARDED.
OMA. lambat aper.
siallah. aku da tak cukup tido.
puki nye nyonya memekak.
nak balek lah ape lah.
bodoh pehh cinonek.
1715
discharged. wee. !
went to eat wif syg and fam.
=)
utk kamu, FIRAY!
thanku fer waiting till 3am with ur fam.
it may be a small thing to you.
but its a VERY big deal to me.
now i truly hope u noe how much u mean to me.
i swear, i love u with all my heart.
"Ayg. Im stil here. Waiting fer u.
It hurts me to noe dat u did dis. why?
I noe u love me. Bt dun do dis.
It hurts me too. I love u sey.
I'll wait.
Ure tears arent precious.
Bt u are ayg.
U are my everyting. U are.
I sumpah. I swear.
I'll neva leave u again. Ok ayg.
Fer now u rest ok bby princess.
Close ur eyes, think bout wad we'e been thru.
Sleep with a smile. I Love You."
"Ayg, i brought my jacket along tau.
Wished dat i cud pass it to u.
Atleast my soul is ther to look afta u."
utk kamu, KWN2ku
thanku fer suprising me.
thanku fer the bear and the balloon.
OMA. im bloody touched.
seriously, i swear.
let me say dis.
wateva hpns btwn me & him.
i stil do love him with my WHOLE heart.
i swear. it has neva changed.
u may blame him. u may talk bad about him.
bt all i wna say is.
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
u may think im a fool.
but wat my heart nid is HIM.
without him i fall.
isnt it tru?
he left me. whr did i land in?
so i reali nid him.
now he's by my side.
i'll treasure him till my last counting breathe.
ive always forgiven him.
u guys shud too.
because w/o him.
dere will neva be a smile on my face.
try taking him away.
and i'll change.
i swear.
try thinkin it ova. =)
Ila.Bebehh ♥
♥ The Lover.