as dated, its 13 July 2008. before i start this post. i just wna wish syg a hapi one month togetha. im grateful dat we're still togetha. bcoz i nid u so much. feelings fer u just get stronger each day. i swear. no one, not even [insert name] can tear us apart. i noe we believe in each otha. n im sure we can go far. i really appreciate fer everythin u did fer me. n even the most expensive things in the world cant replace it. fer the past few weeks, we've not been spending tym wif each otha, due to work n stuff. but i noe u are making an effort to still hold on. haix. we've been misundertandin each otha quite lately. maybe we just nid each otha so much dat even the slightest thing make us go chaotic. i love you. i do. stronger den wat u eva tink. as times goes by, im still hanging on the hope that ure gona be by my side till eternity. sometimes i do feel foolish. i woke up now finding those three msges from u unbearable. n how could u keep the most impt thing from me. am i not impt enuff to know syg? n i duno whtr i shld gif up on hope. high expectations to be wif u till eternity were made long ago. maybe this is how life goes. taking away the one we love. im not strong enuff fer that syg. now afta awhile, tears dripping. i cant hold on to it nimore. i cant bear to see u go. trust me syg. im the only one that noes this matter. i cant hold on to it alone. yes, ur frens need not noe now. but, they're stil ure frens syg. time fly so fast, that it ticks away life. if eva u go, u said dat u'll be in peace noeing dat i love u. but i wont be, noeing dat u're gone from my side. without u, everything seems to fall. ure the pillar, ure the spine of my every breathe. without u, i'll be sumone u neva knew. ure my smile, ure my laughter. without u, all that is left is sorrow. still hanging by the thread ryte now. let me belive dat u will neva go. n dats impossible i noe. letting go of everything, should i? let this matter , we keep to ourself. let me suffer alone ok syg. i love u. i do. n nothing can replace dat. i swear. tc syg. tc of urself.! n no more ciggies. pls. im beggin u. haix. =(