Sorry ppl fer nt updating fer awhile.
i was superduper busy wif work.
and i wna thnak my SYG fer sending and fetching me.
and i wna thank my SYG's mum for feeding me afta work.

Today's post is about you, syg
dere is no one else to talk abt. except fer you.
dere is loads of things i wna tell you.
but im just too shy to tell in u in person.
i dun even noe why.


Syg, i know since e past few days we've been fighting alot. n i know its my fault. i neva think about ur feelings first before i say something to you. while typing this post. my tears have been dripping. bcoz im feeling guilty. Syg, dun eva go. If u eva go, there's no meaning in my life. Its betta i end it if ure gone. Syg, i know ure sick. But pls, for the sake of our love, fight it. I will always be here if u nid me. even if u dun nid me, im always here. for you syg. no one else. haix. Today is the 6th of July. ytd i made a big mistake in hurting u again. im disappointd in myself. fer letting u down. maybe u think im feeling happy. but dats whr ure wrong. haix. i feel like fckn kill myself fer hurting u. i know i cant turn back tym. if eva i can. i would neva eva talk to you dat way. haix. syg. forgive me. pls. im begging you. i would sacrifice anything in dis world for u. even my happiness. syg, pls. i love u. haix. im not sure wthr u'll forgive my this tym round. im grateful for everything uve down fer me. haix. the sweet gentle kiss. the kiss on my forehead. the 3-step procedure when walking wif u. the hitting me. the lying on my lap. the piggy back me. the i love u on the sand. the waiting fer me fer 3 hrs outside my workplace alone. haix. syg. i appreciate everything u did fer me. n yet all i did was to hurt u. i dun deserve u do i? haix. im neva gd enuff fer u am i? haix. im a messed up gf ryte? do u tink i deserve u? haix. syg, ure my everything. i swear. without u in my life. dere's no more sunshine or wadso eva. n suddenly i feel like hitting my head on the wall. n suddenly i feel like getting high. n suddenly i feel im useless to everyone. haix.

b4 im gone again. to aiseyAIN. i miss u so much gf.
im sorry fer not spending tym wif u during our hols.
im stuck wif work.
im sorry if i neva accompany u to ur checkup's.
im sorry to not be by ur side.
im sorry.
im sorry.
im sorry.

p.s. I will always love you. till ur last counting breathe. =(