as dated, today is the 29th of July.
the day is drawin nearer.
next week it is. i cant hold on much longer.
can i break down n cry.
but the thing is, i got no shoulder to lean on ryte now.
now, im on my own. but ryte now i need someone.
he said that im a strong gal.
but no, im just puttin up a brave front.
for goodness sake, i cant hold on to it!!
a lot of 'what if's' stuck on my head.
i cant take it animore.
please. im begging you.
dun go. i nid you in my life.
negativity. negativity.m negativity.
is dis the punishment for all my sins?
please. i beg you god.
dun take him away from me.
he's the only one i got ryte now.
he's my every breathe.
if you take him away from me.
i'll die.
i cant let go of him. i must not.
the memories. the love. and him.
is the most valuable thing in my life.
oh my god!.
no one noes what im gg tru ryte now.
argh. i hate myself ryte now.
ive got a week left to gif my all to him.
n i truly hope its enuf for him.
i hope its enuf to gif him courage.
i hope its enuf to gif him strength.
i hope its enuf to gif him the belief.
n i truly hope its enuf to gif him hope.
im holding back my tears. reali holdin back.
im keepin it from everyone.
i'll soon breakdown.
but i duno when.
Syg, all i could say ryte now is.
I Love You With All My Heart.
Even If Its Not Enuf For You.
I Just Wana Say Dat.
I Truly Love You.
Syg. I Swear.
Please Dun Go!. =(